2dreams
whoa whoa whoaaaaaaaaaaa. i just remembered my dream.
anderson cooper was hanging out with me. wha? well not really. he was just around. and i was talking about this guy who was hot, a news anchor.
wait a sec. i had incredible dreams last night.
there was this guy that had been jailed for a very long time for breaking an entering at a cathedral. he finally escaped. at this point in his life he had wasted into slimy troll - but had the stamina to climb stairs?
so he escapes back into the cathedral and tries to climb to the top. he makes it past the guards and is still climbing climbing climbing. i woke up when he was at a section of the cathedral devoted to modern-day successful people.
anyway. anderson cooper was hanging, and i was talking to this 8 year old telling her about how hot this certain news anchor was, and that he also had a really hot mother. anderson just kind of looked at me.
and then we all sat down on the couch together, and watched the news.
anderson cooper was hanging out with me. wha? well not really. he was just around. and i was talking about this guy who was hot, a news anchor.
wait a sec. i had incredible dreams last night.
there was this guy that had been jailed for a very long time for breaking an entering at a cathedral. he finally escaped. at this point in his life he had wasted into slimy troll - but had the stamina to climb stairs?
so he escapes back into the cathedral and tries to climb to the top. he makes it past the guards and is still climbing climbing climbing. i woke up when he was at a section of the cathedral devoted to modern-day successful people.
anyway. anderson cooper was hanging, and i was talking to this 8 year old telling her about how hot this certain news anchor was, and that he also had a really hot mother. anderson just kind of looked at me.
and then we all sat down on the couch together, and watched the news.
wokework
i woke up this morning 100% happy about my little life & job & love. i woke up feeling like everything is in its right place, right now.
things dont work out - for a right place.
things work out - for a right place.
its all the right place.
this is going to lead to something else that leads to something else.
it all clearly made sense to me. it felt small, and special, and fun.
and then the moment passed, and i got in line to take a shower.
things dont work out - for a right place.
things work out - for a right place.
its all the right place.
this is going to lead to something else that leads to something else.
it all clearly made sense to me. it felt small, and special, and fun.
and then the moment passed, and i got in line to take a shower.
laying
thinking about valentines day. and thinking about things you talk about when you are laying in bed with someone.
this sort of hits home right now.
this sort of hits home right now.
rearwindow
last night was rear window. loved a comment someone made in the special features about identity. he said jb grabbed for his camera flash as a means to protect himself. the only way he knew how. with his identity. that ended up only delaying the inevitable.
dial m
loved the opening scene in dial m for murder. i'm finally getting to the more popular hitchcocks. so anyway, loved the opening scene, and loved the guilty color sequence.
change in plans
why am i completely OK with running away as fast as i can?
i don't want anything with this person.
its proximity. thats all it is. a weekend without will do me good.
i don't want anything with this person.
its proximity. thats all it is. a weekend without will do me good.
oh look at that blueberry scone
do you mind if i sleep here?
i like your company
sleep
hand rest hip
head rest shoulder
feet rest feet
breathe listen
listen breathe
big breath!
tiny breath.
face nose face
knee thigh knee
breathe listen breathe
smile cheeks hurt
hours pass
hours pass
coffee vanilla
almond blueberry
crumbs drops
papers music
walk drive bike
air wind hair
we ooze modesty.
i like your company
sleep
hand rest hip
head rest shoulder
feet rest feet
breathe listen
listen breathe
big breath!
tiny breath.
face nose face
knee thigh knee
breathe listen breathe
smile cheeks hurt
hours pass
hours pass
coffee vanilla
almond blueberry
crumbs drops
papers music
walk drive bike
air wind hair
we ooze modesty.
stage fright - hitchcock
"every time i'm beginning to think i know what color your eyes are, you disappear."
new mix
a cute boy made me a mix. yippee. its been fun and weird and sweet and kind and akward and quiet and simple and complex.
anyway, track one is:
And you are no longer a river to me
And you are no longer a river to me
Though your coursing remain eager to acquaint me
And you are no longer a docile stream
And you are no longer a docile stream
Though your patience proves you into ease
And once this spark met kindling
Forgets its gentle ambling
Becoming heat, becoming steam
Becoming luminescent glee
Atoms splinter, sparkling
Alive and nimble symmetry
And all along, this glistening
Blankets we and everything
Shadows dance triumphantly
A wordless whisper sighs and pleas
Little deaths envelope thee
You and I and a flame make three
You and I and a flame make three
You and I and a flame make three
And you are not glassy bay to me
And you are not glassy bay to me
Though my tired fleet abides in your gentle breeze
And you are now vast and open sea
And my mind travels you endlessly
And you beckon, toss and toss and swallow me
And once this spark met kindling
Forgets its gentle ambling
Becoming heat, becoming steam
Becoming luminescent glee
Atoms splinter, sparkling
Alive and nimble symmetry
And all along, this glistening
Blankets we and everything
Shadows dance triumphantly
A wordless whisper sighs and pleas
Little deaths envelope thee
You and I and a flame makes three
anyway, track one is:
And you are no longer a river to me
And you are no longer a river to me
Though your coursing remain eager to acquaint me
And you are no longer a docile stream
And you are no longer a docile stream
Though your patience proves you into ease
And once this spark met kindling
Forgets its gentle ambling
Becoming heat, becoming steam
Becoming luminescent glee
Atoms splinter, sparkling
Alive and nimble symmetry
And all along, this glistening
Blankets we and everything
Shadows dance triumphantly
A wordless whisper sighs and pleas
Little deaths envelope thee
You and I and a flame make three
You and I and a flame make three
You and I and a flame make three
And you are not glassy bay to me
And you are not glassy bay to me
Though my tired fleet abides in your gentle breeze
And you are now vast and open sea
And my mind travels you endlessly
And you beckon, toss and toss and swallow me
And once this spark met kindling
Forgets its gentle ambling
Becoming heat, becoming steam
Becoming luminescent glee
Atoms splinter, sparkling
Alive and nimble symmetry
And all along, this glistening
Blankets we and everything
Shadows dance triumphantly
A wordless whisper sighs and pleas
Little deaths envelope thee
You and I and a flame makes three
under capicorn
me & ingrid bergman all holed up and sick in bed.
another hitchcock movie with ingrid bergman all holed up in her bed, getting poisoned by a jealous woman.
LOL.
another hitchcock movie with ingrid bergman all holed up in her bed, getting poisoned by a jealous woman.
LOL.
two weeks - grizzly bear
Save up all the days
A routine malaise
Just like yesterday
I told you I would stay
Would you always
Maybe sometimes
Make it easy
Take your time
Think of all the ways
Momentary phase
Just like yesterday
I told you I would stay
Every time you try
Quarter half the mile
Just like yesterday
I told you I would stay
Would you always
Maybe sometimes
Make it easy
Take your time
so many colors that surround you.
stay forever by ween
In the morning sun, I couldn't tell you
I couldn't tell you so many things
About how much I really love you
About how much you really mean
So far away, but it's so easy to see you
When I'm away I want to put my arms around you
And I want to know, do you feel the same way?
'Cause if you do I want to stay forever
And I want to know, do you feel the same way?
'Cause if you do I want to stay forever
With you
So many colors that surround you
Some so bright I can hardly see
A light reflects on all the things that make you real
Things that make you truly free
So far away, but it's so easy to see you
When I'm away I want to put my arms around you
And I want to know, do you feel the same way?
'Cause if you do I want to stay forever
And I want to know, do you feel the same way?
'Cause if you do I want to stay forever
With you
ready able. love it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Puph1hejMQE
I’m gonna take a stab at this
Surely we’ll be alright
Make a decision with a kiss
Maybe I have frostbite
And when I shuffled on back home
I made sure all my tracks in the snow were gone
Tissue and bone it was a tryst
This isn’t a gunfight
Checking it off of my list
Unable to write
Five years, countless months and a loan
Hope I’m ready, able to make my own, good home
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did,
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did.
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did,
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did.
::vocalizing::
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did,
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did.
I’m gonna take a stab at this
Surely we’ll be alright
Make a decision with a kiss
Maybe I have frostbite
And when I shuffled on back home
I made sure all my tracks in the snow were gone
Tissue and bone it was a tryst
This isn’t a gunfight
Checking it off of my list
Unable to write
Five years, countless months and a loan
Hope I’m ready, able to make my own, good home
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did,
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did.
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did,
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did.
::vocalizing::
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did,
They go we go, I want you to know, what I did I did.
i'm in my room writing.
yes. thats the difference between me and you.
you know when you watch 4 movies in one weekend, and you remember a scene, but you can't place it to the movie?
she poors alcohol into a potted plant.
was that crazy heart? no.
was that an education? no.
oh yeah, it was breakfast at tiffany's.
i realized, after watching breakfast at tiffany's years later, that i know a lot of girls that think or thought they were holly golightly. while i was watching the movie i was like "oh yeah, thats that girl. oh yeah, that friend. no wait, maybe she is a better match for her." blah blah.
you know when you watch 4 movies in one weekend, and you remember a scene, but you can't place it to the movie?
she poors alcohol into a potted plant.
was that crazy heart? no.
was that an education? no.
oh yeah, it was breakfast at tiffany's.
i realized, after watching breakfast at tiffany's years later, that i know a lot of girls that think or thought they were holly golightly. while i was watching the movie i was like "oh yeah, thats that girl. oh yeah, that friend. no wait, maybe she is a better match for her." blah blah.
places I visited during 2009
1. Mendicino Coast
2. Los Angeles
3. Aruba
4. Jamaica
5. Miami
6. Minneapolis & Rochester, Minnesota
That wraps up another year of minor travel.
2. Los Angeles
3. Aruba
4. Jamaica
5. Miami
6. Minneapolis & Rochester, Minnesota
That wraps up another year of minor travel.
Music of 2009
During 2009 I enjoyed the following bands:
1. kanye
2. dr. dre - chronic
3. ween
4. black eyed peas
5. notorious b.i.g.
6. bon iver
7. anthony & the johnsons
8. beck
9. julian velard
10. mgmt
11. vampire weekend
12. ben folds
13. michael jackson
1. kanye
2. dr. dre - chronic
3. ween
4. black eyed peas
5. notorious b.i.g.
6. bon iver
7. anthony & the johnsons
8. beck
9. julian velard
10. mgmt
11. vampire weekend
12. ben folds
13. michael jackson
my comment on the economy
i know things are not getting better because when i go to salvation army every friday, it takes me 10 minutes to find parking.
at a salvation army in marin county, people. i mean seriously.
at a salvation army in marin county, people. i mean seriously.
3's
i said to much to one.
i didn't say enough to another.
i ain't said shit to the third.
none of them are even in. but they are around.
the peripheral.
and now all of them are doing nothing.
i'd like to get rid of all of them and get hit in the face by a fourth.
3 cheers for this excerpt.
i didn't say enough to another.
i ain't said shit to the third.
none of them are even in. but they are around.
the peripheral.
and now all of them are doing nothing.
i'd like to get rid of all of them and get hit in the face by a fourth.
3 cheers for this excerpt.
thanksgiving
turkey bird morning
google wings pumpkin
spilling mess sponge
oven bed lounge
peets miata music
cleaning dressing dancing
drinking smoking drinking
eat knosh nibble
nibble knosh eat
drink smoke smile
watch lounge nibble
talk plan scope
eat nosh nibble
scoop slice dollop
vertigo
last night i changed my room around, and to celebrate, watched vertigo for the first time.
it was so nice, that i decided to spend the winter in my room, watching alfred hitchcock movies in the order in which they were made.
it didn't make any sense that scotty would fall in love with madeline/judy.
this is a cool site that helped break it down for me.
color symbolism in vertigo
i connected most with the midge character. i like midge. and i like that name.
love game
its funny how the beginning of the love game is all about restraint. well, at least when you are playing games. i'm trying to open myself and make it more about just love. instead of the game.
the game makes it fun. the game makes it fun? well, the game makes it prolonged. which is nice. but how long is prolonged? i'm over the game. i'm ready to dive in and just love already.
snapped
he kind of snapped at me today. he told me something that he doesnt remember telling me, and i brought it up, and now i have him asking me "did i tell you that?"
it makes me feel this big. ()
and it also makes me totally not want to be around him. which is actually a good thing, because...... apparently he is a douchey non-remembering drunk.
and there you have it.
it makes me feel this big. ()
and it also makes me totally not want to be around him. which is actually a good thing, because...... apparently he is a douchey non-remembering drunk.
and there you have it.
"be here now" type shit
its all about the "be here now" type shit.
i find myself saying that a lot.
you are typing
you are reading
you are eating a burrito
you are burning cds
you are there. and there. and there. and here.
you are now.
breathe in. breathe out a couple beats longer than the in.
breathe out. and out and out until you can no longer breathe out!!! whew. ok. breathe in.
be here now type shit.
i find myself saying that a lot.
you are typing
you are reading
you are eating a burrito
you are burning cds
you are there. and there. and there. and here.
you are now.
breathe in. breathe out a couple beats longer than the in.
breathe out. and out and out until you can no longer breathe out!!! whew. ok. breathe in.
be here now type shit.
this in that. that in this
today? very productive.
i've had a few ideas just floating around in my head. i sleep on them, i spin on them, i eat on them, i zone out on them.
finally i wrote them down!
so they are not in full process.
main goal for the next year? TO BE PUBLISHED.
i will be published. photographically speaking, of course.
second main ongoing goal? TO HAVE A GALLERY SHOW.
i will have a gallery show. photographically speaking, of course.
other than that, i've been filling my time with burning all of my music onto my hard drive.
sounds hot?
it is really hot.
i've had a few ideas just floating around in my head. i sleep on them, i spin on them, i eat on them, i zone out on them.
finally i wrote them down!
so they are not in full process.
main goal for the next year? TO BE PUBLISHED.
i will be published. photographically speaking, of course.
second main ongoing goal? TO HAVE A GALLERY SHOW.
i will have a gallery show. photographically speaking, of course.
other than that, i've been filling my time with burning all of my music onto my hard drive.
sounds hot?
it is really hot.
mtg
a 10yr old kid walked by me at work, carrying a plate of cookies.
where are you going with those cookies?
to the meeting downstairs about how to deal with my feelings of hate.
oh. ok.
where are you going with those cookies?
to the meeting downstairs about how to deal with my feelings of hate.
oh. ok.
look forward to
he went silent.
its ok its ok its ok. its just one of those things!
new haircut - short bob
i'm getting more side-jobs.
spin class rocks
my dog is now ten.
dot. the drop-top baby.
i've been thinking about this hippie lately. inbetween boughts of thinking about the dude of course.
its ok its ok its ok. its just one of those things!
new haircut - short bob
i'm getting more side-jobs.
spin class rocks
my dog is now ten.
dot. the drop-top baby.
i've been thinking about this hippie lately. inbetween boughts of thinking about the dude of course.
fathersceneinthewrestler
i balled my eyes out during this scene. shamelessly. in the movie theatre. i love asbury park and i loved it when he called her is girl. i just watched it on demand this weekend, and pressed rewind about 10 times.
madmen
yesterday i was obsessed with Man Men, and watched the entire 1st season.
Today, i am obsessed with early 60's advertising & design.
this vw bug ad is where its at.
Today, i am obsessed with early 60's advertising & design.
this vw bug ad is where its at.
anie&sean
got married today. it was a very sweet ceremony of about 5 people. anie read sean the sweetest poem by bill collins called Litany. it goes like this:
Litany
by Billy Collins
You are the bread and the knife,
The crystal goblet and the wine...
—Jacques Crickillon
You are the bread and the knife,
the crystal goblet and the wine.
You are the dew on the morning grass
and the burning wheel of the sun.
You are the white apron of the baker,
and the marsh birds suddenly in flight.
However, you are not the wind in the orchard,
the plums on the counter,
or the house of cards.
And you are certainly not the pine-scented air.
There is just no way that you are the pine-scented air.
It is possible that you are the fish under the bridge,
maybe even the pigeon on the general's head,
but you are not even close
to being the field of cornflowers at dusk.
And a quick look in the mirror will show
that you are neither the boots in the corner
nor the boat asleep in its boathouse.
It might interest you to know,
speaking of the plentiful imagery of the world,
that I am the sound of rain on the roof.
I also happen to be the shooting star,
the evening paper blowing down an alley
and the basket of chestnuts on the kitchen table.
I am also the moon in the trees
and the blind woman's tea cup.
But don't worry, I'm not the bread and the knife.
You are still the bread and the knife.
You will always be the bread and the knife,
not to mention the crystal goblet and—somehow—the wine.
barefoot
andy rooney just said "and of all the things I miss, I don't go barefoot in the summer anymore."
Makes me think about how my childhood doctor - dr. Russell - once told my mom that if my feet had a tendency to be sweaty - then i should just not wear shoes.
so i didn't any chance i got, i'd be barefoot. well into high school, i'd get home, take off my shoes, and walk to my friends houses... barefoot. other mothers would gasp - telling me to go home and put on my shoes. i would just reply "doctors orders".
i miss those simple solutions and explanations. just kind of like a small miss. a random miss. like something i may tell my grandchildren some day.
Makes me think about how my childhood doctor - dr. Russell - once told my mom that if my feet had a tendency to be sweaty - then i should just not wear shoes.
so i didn't any chance i got, i'd be barefoot. well into high school, i'd get home, take off my shoes, and walk to my friends houses... barefoot. other mothers would gasp - telling me to go home and put on my shoes. i would just reply "doctors orders".
i miss those simple solutions and explanations. just kind of like a small miss. a random miss. like something i may tell my grandchildren some day.
Dont Do That by Stephen Dunn
i met him once. but i cant really remember how or when or why......
It was bring-your-own if you wanted anything; Whiskey; Bottles; Johnnie Walker Red; Parties; Drinking; Dogs It was bring-your-own if you wanted anything
hard, so I brought Johnnie Walker Red
along with some resentment I’d held in
for a few weeks, which was not helped
by the sight of little nameless things
pierced with toothpicks on the tables,
or by talk that promised to be nothing
if not small. But I’d consented to come,
and I knew what part of the house
their animals would be sequestered,
whose company I loved. What else can I say,
except that old retainer of slights and wrongs,
that bad boy I hadn’t quite outgrown—
I’d brought him along, too. I was out
to cultivate a mood. My hosts greeted me,
but did not ask about my soul, which was when
I was invited by Johnnie Walker Red
to find the right kind of glass, and pour.
I toasted the air. I said hello to the wall,
then walked past a group of women
dressed to be seen, undressing them
one by one, and went up the stairs to where
the Rottweilers were, Rosie and Tom,
and got down with them on all fours.
They licked the face I offered them,
and I proceeded to slick back my hair
with their saliva, and before long
I felt like a wild thing, ready to mess up
the party, scarf the hors d’oeuvres.
But the dogs said, No, don’t do that,
calm down, after a while they open the door
and let you out, they pet your head, and everything
you might have held against them is gone,
and you’re good friends again. Stay, they said.
It was bring-your-own if you wanted anything; Whiskey; Bottles; Johnnie Walker Red; Parties; Drinking; Dogs It was bring-your-own if you wanted anything
hard, so I brought Johnnie Walker Red
along with some resentment I’d held in
for a few weeks, which was not helped
by the sight of little nameless things
pierced with toothpicks on the tables,
or by talk that promised to be nothing
if not small. But I’d consented to come,
and I knew what part of the house
their animals would be sequestered,
whose company I loved. What else can I say,
except that old retainer of slights and wrongs,
that bad boy I hadn’t quite outgrown—
I’d brought him along, too. I was out
to cultivate a mood. My hosts greeted me,
but did not ask about my soul, which was when
I was invited by Johnnie Walker Red
to find the right kind of glass, and pour.
I toasted the air. I said hello to the wall,
then walked past a group of women
dressed to be seen, undressing them
one by one, and went up the stairs to where
the Rottweilers were, Rosie and Tom,
and got down with them on all fours.
They licked the face I offered them,
and I proceeded to slick back my hair
with their saliva, and before long
I felt like a wild thing, ready to mess up
the party, scarf the hors d’oeuvres.
But the dogs said, No, don’t do that,
calm down, after a while they open the door
and let you out, they pet your head, and everything
you might have held against them is gone,
and you’re good friends again. Stay, they said.
can'tsleep
when you have insomnia, it really is like being stuck with yourself. like in a small prison. you are already with yourself all day - its nice to look forward to the night "break" where you can escape to dreamworld. fantasy. easy. black. light. sleep. awake.
anyway, laying there at 3am trying to stay happy because its the start of a new day, but trying to get back to sleep because you are not yet ready to start said new day........
thats what insomnia is like. ladeedah like. hohumlike. puzzling.
anyway, laying there at 3am trying to stay happy because its the start of a new day, but trying to get back to sleep because you are not yet ready to start said new day........
thats what insomnia is like. ladeedah like. hohumlike. puzzling.
31
party dance dance party
reflect sit focus
photo learn drive picture
reflect wedding humid
crush fall crush gush
sleep akward crush gush
national iver hiphop
cut me in quadrants leave me in the corner
audi volkswagen porsche cars cars
money nomoney money nomoney
reflect
new york aruba unemployment employment
new friend weight money nomoney
nocar no yes bike
coffee cup holder flash lense
plant orchid cash organic
laugh reflect
sneeze smoke breathe
epson salt awake chakras
clear foggy clear peace
reflect sit focus
photo learn drive picture
reflect wedding humid
crush fall crush gush
sleep akward crush gush
national iver hiphop
cut me in quadrants leave me in the corner
audi volkswagen porsche cars cars
money nomoney money nomoney
reflect
new york aruba unemployment employment
new friend weight money nomoney
nocar no yes bike
coffee cup holder flash lense
plant orchid cash organic
laugh reflect
sneeze smoke breathe
epson salt awake chakras
clear foggy clear peace
we met in the middle
the middle
we met in the middle.
how homosexual was benjamin button. so gay.
so anyway, i am so happy tonight. my life has become me biking home, driking a bottle of cab, watching keith oberman, and dancingto 50 cent on the commerical breaks.
yet, there is a part that is still misisng. it really doesn’t add up. its great. nothing adding up. its just splendid.
just felt like reporting on my status.
we met in the middle.
how homosexual was benjamin button. so gay.
so anyway, i am so happy tonight. my life has become me biking home, driking a bottle of cab, watching keith oberman, and dancingto 50 cent on the commerical breaks.
yet, there is a part that is still misisng. it really doesn’t add up. its great. nothing adding up. its just splendid.
just felt like reporting on my status.
sebastosmell
its cute how sabastopol smells like patuoli oil.
i can’t wait to stare at my farmer tomorrow. and for him to stare at me. i love it. i’ve been waiting all week for this.
i can’t wait to stare at my farmer tomorrow. and for him to stare at me. i love it. i’ve been waiting all week for this.
places i've visited 2008
san francisco, ca
rye, ny
greenwich, ct
new york city
yosemite national park, ca
prineville, or
entire oregon coast
not that much travelling. I was on unemployment the bulk of the year, and then i didn’t travel for the past 3 months because I had just gotten the job.
rye, ny
greenwich, ct
new york city
yosemite national park, ca
prineville, or
entire oregon coast
not that much travelling. I was on unemployment the bulk of the year, and then i didn’t travel for the past 3 months because I had just gotten the job.
marin comment
a quip told to me by carolyn during an after dinner walk around a random boat yard/pier in tiburon:
a woman spilled a bunch of red wine in trader joes the other day.
i didn’t mind it much, and at the checkout said “well it actually smells rather nice.”
the man behind me said “it was a good year.”
these little things make me love this area.
a woman spilled a bunch of red wine in trader joes the other day.
i didn’t mind it much, and at the checkout said “well it actually smells rather nice.”
the man behind me said “it was a good year.”
these little things make me love this area.
dancing around to -
She don’t believe in shooting stars
But she believes in shoes and cars
Wood floors in a new apartment
Couture from the store’s departments
You more like ‘love to start shit’
I’m more of the
Trips to Florida
Order the hor douvres, view of the water
Straight from a page of your favorite author
And the weather’s so breezy
Man, why can’t life always be this easy?
She in the mirror dancing so sleazy
I get a call like ‘Where are you, geezy?’
And try to hit you with the Ol-Wu-Wopte
Till I got flashed by the paparazzi
Damn, these niggas got me
I hate these niggas more than a Nazi
As I recall, I know you love to show off
But I never thought that you would take it this far
But what do I know?
(Flashing lights)
What do I know?
I know it’s been a while, sweetheart
We hardly talked
I was doing my thing
I know it was foul baby
Ay, babe, lately you been all on my brain
And if somebody woulda told me a month ago Frontin’ though
Yo, I wouldn’t wanna know
If somebody woulda told me a year ago it’ll go
get this difficult
Feeling like Katrina with no FEMA
Like Martin with no Gina
Like a flight with no visa
FIrst class with the seat back I still see ya
In my past you on the other side of the glass
Of my memory’s museum
I’m just saying, hey Mona Lisa
Come home you know you can’t Rome without Caesar
As I recall, I know you love to show off
But I never thought that you would take it this far
What do I know?
(Flashing lights)
what do I know
As you recall, you know I love to show off
But you never thought that I would take it this far
What do you know?
(Flashing lights)
What do you know?
But she believes in shoes and cars
Wood floors in a new apartment
Couture from the store’s departments
You more like ‘love to start shit’
I’m more of the
Trips to Florida
Order the hor douvres, view of the water
Straight from a page of your favorite author
And the weather’s so breezy
Man, why can’t life always be this easy?
She in the mirror dancing so sleazy
I get a call like ‘Where are you, geezy?’
And try to hit you with the Ol-Wu-Wopte
Till I got flashed by the paparazzi
Damn, these niggas got me
I hate these niggas more than a Nazi
As I recall, I know you love to show off
But I never thought that you would take it this far
But what do I know?
(Flashing lights)
What do I know?
I know it’s been a while, sweetheart
We hardly talked
I was doing my thing
I know it was foul baby
Ay, babe, lately you been all on my brain
And if somebody woulda told me a month ago Frontin’ though
Yo, I wouldn’t wanna know
If somebody woulda told me a year ago it’ll go
get this difficult
Feeling like Katrina with no FEMA
Like Martin with no Gina
Like a flight with no visa
FIrst class with the seat back I still see ya
In my past you on the other side of the glass
Of my memory’s museum
I’m just saying, hey Mona Lisa
Come home you know you can’t Rome without Caesar
As I recall, I know you love to show off
But I never thought that you would take it this far
What do I know?
(Flashing lights)
what do I know
As you recall, you know I love to show off
But you never thought that I would take it this far
What do you know?
(Flashing lights)
What do you know?
longest month
when did december stop being the longest month of the year??
when did december 1 - speed quickly to december 25th?
remember when it used to take 5 years to get from dec. 1 to dec. 25th?
when did december 1 - speed quickly to december 25th?
remember when it used to take 5 years to get from dec. 1 to dec. 25th?
b and s
this is a cute song that i like tonight. its by belle and sebastian. called "to be myself completely"
Well, my heart has fallen down
Thought I’d talked myself around
But to be myself completely I’ve just got to let you down
Well, I knew I’d say goodbye
Though it’s not my time to cry
And forever and for no one I will let it all go by
And to be myself completely I’ve just got to say goodbye
Z-list star in a hundred grand Garrett
The ladies say, "Hey, baby, you’ve earned it!"
I’m not so sure, I toured the land
You could call it work if you count the band
Still your voice calls out to me
Escort me to the harmony
I’m not sure what I will be
Find me in a bitter sweet hello
Well, my heart has fallen down
Thought I’d talked myself around
Though we say goodbye and wonder
What’s to know and who’s to blame
But to be myself completely I will love you just the same
Well, my heart has fallen down
Thought I’d talked myself around
But to be myself completely I’ve just got to let you down
Well, I knew I’d say goodbye
Though it’s not my time to cry
And forever and for no one I will let it all go by
And to be myself completely I’ve just got to say goodbye
Z-list star in a hundred grand Garrett
The ladies say, "Hey, baby, you’ve earned it!"
I’m not so sure, I toured the land
You could call it work if you count the band
Still your voice calls out to me
Escort me to the harmony
I’m not sure what I will be
Find me in a bitter sweet hello
Well, my heart has fallen down
Thought I’d talked myself around
Though we say goodbye and wonder
What’s to know and who’s to blame
But to be myself completely I will love you just the same
menhalls
another reason i love working with all men:
today i had a raspy throat at work (sore throat, nothing major). 2 different men brought me cough drops, im-promp-tu!
2 men told me i sounded sexy.
maybe i just know evil women? but no woman i've ever worked with would have done that.
today i had a raspy throat at work (sore throat, nothing major). 2 different men brought me cough drops, im-promp-tu!
2 men told me i sounded sexy.
maybe i just know evil women? but no woman i've ever worked with would have done that.
ok
what was i going to say? oh yeah. ok.
you know things are going OK, when:
you kind of want to stay at work, just because. not that there is anything wrong with home - but you like both equally.
know what i'm saying. not LOVE. but content like.
its all good.
you know things are going OK, when:
you kind of want to stay at work, just because. not that there is anything wrong with home - but you like both equally.
know what i'm saying. not LOVE. but content like.
its all good.
this picture means a lot to me.
for a few reasons. its funny in an interesting way. how this boring picture, means a lot to me right now.
the other person in the room i had a huge crush/omg i can't believe it crush on.
the lens changed my view.
i wanted to like, make out, with the lens.
i realized life was about the lenses in college. when mona and miles let me use his grandfathers camera. they let me use a lot. i should fix up the car and send it back to them.
differentlayers
gosh its one of those times where i listen to rap and emo and girl rap and beard rock. know what i mean? and my pictures are moody and my pictures a crisp. and my lights are bright and my lights are dim. my bike bikes and my car putts.
know what i mean?
you know, i love rogue wave - harmonium.
i also love atmosphere - dreamer. the title of the new atmosphere sure is great. "when life gives you lemons, paint that shit gold"
cute. right?
YOU BETTER BUST THEM OUT!
its so teenage that i have a den where no one can barely hear me bang on the desk with my hands and jump up and down on the floors. and BUST IT OUT. just like rogue wave harmonium.
cute. right?
well anyway, i just felt like sharing thats its been one of those wondering beautying weeks. fall is fast on our heels! there is a cool in the air. the gut starts pining for new york again. or just anything with fall or change of leaves really. the heart starts pining for other lost hearts. met or not. in a change way. men preach about changing things up. athletes jump run and dive.
to sum it up.
one night stands, or 1/2 night stands, or 2 hour stands, or 36 hour stands, or weekend stands, or stand stands, or breakfast stands, or bar stands, or gossip stands, or moppy stands, or work stands, or 5 night stands back to back.
they are all like fast food.
just one trip to mcdonalds, one trip to wendys, one trip to burger king, one trip through the drive through of in-n-out, one trip to jack-n-the-box, one trip to sonic, one trip to a&w, one trip to big joe's express, one trip to dairy queen.
all leave you happy and then sad. fit and then fat. beautiful and then greased. hamburger then fries. soda then milkshake. ketchup then mustard. seasame then bun.
they are all like fast food.
just one trip to mcdonalds, one trip to wendys, one trip to burger king, one trip through the drive through of in-n-out, one trip to jack-n-the-box, one trip to sonic, one trip to a&w, one trip to big joe's express, one trip to dairy queen.
all leave you happy and then sad. fit and then fat. beautiful and then greased. hamburger then fries. soda then milkshake. ketchup then mustard. seasame then bun.
newday
its just kind of funny to be back in the uncomfortable shoes, with all the other people wearing the uncomfortable shoes.
plod plod plod till lunch time. plod till break. plod till out time. race to eat.
plod plod plod till payday. plod till cashed. plod till store close. spend till gone.
so i'm back. and its good. i learned all the lessons i knew i'd learn, and i feel the same way i knew i'd feel. its cool.
i do love my new work. and i am excited. its just funny to be back.
i'm like what? i'm my own boss. right.
plod plod plod till lunch time. plod till break. plod till out time. race to eat.
plod plod plod till payday. plod till cashed. plod till store close. spend till gone.
so i'm back. and its good. i learned all the lessons i knew i'd learn, and i feel the same way i knew i'd feel. its cool.
i do love my new work. and i am excited. its just funny to be back.
i'm like what? i'm my own boss. right.
petit
man on wire is one of those movies where you leave the theatre quiet, inspired to tight-rope walk the sidewalk cracks.
how me made passionate love in celebration of flesh and blood after his being released from the psych evaluation.
dude was such a baller to fly back and forth between new york and paris to plot his wtc wire invasion.
thats the way to roll.
bigsmall
the big blogs should stop complaining about the little blogs. i mean, blogging is simply freedom of speech. and boo hoo if you think most of the blogs out there are boring. truth is, most of the human population is boring.
it would be like finding a slew of notebooks from some random 8th grade class. 89 percent of the notebooks would be boring. the other percent would be mildly interesting, etc. you get my point.
it would be like finding a slew of notebooks from some random 8th grade class. 89 percent of the notebooks would be boring. the other percent would be mildly interesting, etc. you get my point.
ok,oki'vebeenwatchinthehills
lo really sucks. i mean seriously? what a brat. i'm on team audrina. if i have to hear about how lo and lauren have been best friends since they were little? i mean seriously.
and why is lauren so obsessed with "roommate time"? its just weird.
stephanie? is like so incredibly lame? with her slurred speak. and her broken promises. god get me a gun.
justin bobby is so hot. i love "i'm just trying to get my party straight". i feel that. good job justin bobby.
i guess i watch for the LA scenery.
and why is lauren so obsessed with "roommate time"? its just weird.
stephanie? is like so incredibly lame? with her slurred speak. and her broken promises. god get me a gun.
justin bobby is so hot. i love "i'm just trying to get my party straight". i feel that. good job justin bobby.
i guess i watch for the LA scenery.
misplaced?
there is a mccain office in downtown san rafael. i was totally shocked for about 2 hours last night after seeing this. california kat and talked about it for awhile, and she said she is not surprised. she is from marin.
i however, cannot accept this as anything reputable. its making me embarrassed to be living in san rafael? isn't that so judgmental of me? totally.
WWOD? what would obama do?
just kidding. i'm not that psycho about obama. but i did think marin county was. of all of california - we were the county with the highest obama percentage.
maybe that is why mccain is here?
i however, cannot accept this as anything reputable. its making me embarrassed to be living in san rafael? isn't that so judgmental of me? totally.
WWOD? what would obama do?
just kidding. i'm not that psycho about obama. but i did think marin county was. of all of california - we were the county with the highest obama percentage.
maybe that is why mccain is here?
potblogsnottaken
igetstonedandblog.
igetstoned
getstoned - ended in 2003
why are we bothering with the http:// anymore? can we stop hooking up to them already?
igetstoned
getstoned - ended in 2003
why are we bothering with the http:// anymore? can we stop hooking up to them already?
olympic
well i sure do think that watching the Olympics on TV, is a family thing.
i sure do think.
"i used to watch the olympics when i was growing up"
so did i
i love gymnastics
i love swimming
my mom loved gymnastics
my mom liked swimming.
no really i liked swimming.
if you can, please possibly vote for my current gold medal.
and listen to YOU by rogue wave.
listen to it,
and then listen to it.
and then think about wanting to listen to it.
and then think about wanting to listen to it.
and then,
then smoke.
and then listen to it.
and then,
and then
i sure do think.
"i used to watch the olympics when i was growing up"
so did i
i love gymnastics
i love swimming
my mom loved gymnastics
my mom liked swimming.
no really i liked swimming.
if you can, please possibly vote for my current gold medal.
and listen to YOU by rogue wave.
listen to it,
and then listen to it.
and then think about wanting to listen to it.
and then think about wanting to listen to it.
and then,
then smoke.
and then listen to it.
and then,
and then
in the basement.
i've been getting spiritual.
it all happened on tuesday. no, thursday. duh.
i'm all about the chakras now. learning things as-fast-as-i-can! asfastasican. colors! and crystals! and meditation! and spirits! and daddies! and mommies! and your little brother that hit you in the 3rd grade! and that one time you got fired!
anotherbbq
tonight i ate only vegetable bbqd things.
and i liked it.
we talked about our sun signs. and our moon signs. and our rising sign.
did you know that i am a taurus towards bedtime, and libra at waking. i am run by the aries sign, as my "core" and as a taurus, i am actually striving to be the opposite sign, which is scorpio.
so that makes sense. we are all something. arent we. i mean, we all have traits of something.
so why have traits set in place?
oh cuz someone said so. and its been one of the oldest since the dawn of time.
interesting how they just showed a commercial with an olympian, and he was sitting on the couch eating while watching tv while reclining.
sendin' a message people.
sending a message.
people telling stories to get your attention. keep watchin.
dog time. chilling with your dog.
bed time. chilling with your bed.
showing all the things its going to take you to be an olympian.
all these things together make you a winner.
and i liked it.
we talked about our sun signs. and our moon signs. and our rising sign.
did you know that i am a taurus towards bedtime, and libra at waking. i am run by the aries sign, as my "core" and as a taurus, i am actually striving to be the opposite sign, which is scorpio.
so that makes sense. we are all something. arent we. i mean, we all have traits of something.
so why have traits set in place?
oh cuz someone said so. and its been one of the oldest since the dawn of time.
interesting how they just showed a commercial with an olympian, and he was sitting on the couch eating while watching tv while reclining.
sendin' a message people.
sending a message.
people telling stories to get your attention. keep watchin.
dog time. chilling with your dog.
bed time. chilling with your bed.
showing all the things its going to take you to be an olympian.
all these things together make you a winner.
rich apps
i am personally excited for the I AM POOR apple application for the IPHONE. the i am poor application will possibly be blue. and pulsate. like blueballs. it can't really be yellow - that would mistake it for a yellow diamond - coveted by many.
i guess it could be green - emerald- poormans diamond.
the I AM POOR app will be only purchased by payment plan- offered through the apps website. you will have the option of taking out a year payment plan interest free for the first six months; or a two year payment plan with 2.4 percent interest rate during the last month, during which you can forclose if need be, or declare bankruptcy.
apps for art
obama for prez
paris for comedy.
i guess it could be green - emerald- poormans diamond.
the I AM POOR app will be only purchased by payment plan- offered through the apps website. you will have the option of taking out a year payment plan interest free for the first six months; or a two year payment plan with 2.4 percent interest rate during the last month, during which you can forclose if need be, or declare bankruptcy.
apps for art
obama for prez
paris for comedy.
clouds
part of the "seasons" here is the welcoming back of clouds. they disappear for like 7 months, and then one day they come back, and life couldn't be better.
clouds make the sky more interesting.
i'm not talking about the fog. the fog is more like this big gray hand, that covers your face. its always there. no break from fog.
the clouds however, aren't always there. so they are part of our "seasons". yippee.
clouds make the sky more interesting.
i'm not talking about the fog. the fog is more like this big gray hand, that covers your face. its always there. no break from fog.
the clouds however, aren't always there. so they are part of our "seasons". yippee.
kingofsea
really, its the pilot fish that is the king of the ocean. the pilot fish eats the parasites off the shark. follows the shark around for its entire life, and never gets eaten.
they are like the personal assistants.
the working class heroes.
the pilot fish.
funnysketch
today i am super obsessed with the stuart sketch on madtv. michael mcdonald XI is hilarious. and so is the mom.
goinggay
gosh. i just felt a tinge of satisfaction at the thought that maybe lindsay going gay will promote all young women to gay.
so all the women will go gay, and then all that will be left will be the straight men. all alone. like the dumbasses they are.
so all the women will go gay, and then all that will be left will be the straight men. all alone. like the dumbasses they are.
thenew
lindsay is making gay the new straight.
i am making beard the new shave.
lets make bike the new car
and sober the new drunk.
pie the new cake
dog the new cat.
hi the new bye
smile the new frown.
i am making beard the new shave.
lets make bike the new car
and sober the new drunk.
pie the new cake
dog the new cat.
hi the new bye
smile the new frown.
beardrock
i like the new term "beard rock" as quoted in this month's vanity fair. we all know i am a fan of the beard, and i am a groupie of minor sorts. and we all know i have crushes on people like jim james, etc.
so i just love saying 'beard rock'. yesterday in bolinas with mia on the beach, she kept saying "yo" and i kept saying "oh look at that beautiful beard-rock boy". so it was fun for all.
beard rock. oh they are such beautiful boys.
also, whats great is that my girlfriends here think guys with beards are gross. so i kind of have them all to myself. yummy.
beard-rock.
its been hot here. we swam in the pacific yesterday.
so i just love saying 'beard rock'. yesterday in bolinas with mia on the beach, she kept saying "yo" and i kept saying "oh look at that beautiful beard-rock boy". so it was fun for all.
beard rock. oh they are such beautiful boys.
also, whats great is that my girlfriends here think guys with beards are gross. so i kind of have them all to myself. yummy.
beard-rock.
its been hot here. we swam in the pacific yesterday.
gettin' it
post brought to you by too $hort. uh. feel it niggas. i feel it in every cell.
Now let me holler at ya partner, spit this game
in you ear for a minute, quit complaining
Bout how you can't spend it cause you ain't got it
You got what it takes but not enough to get started
I hope you get the message, no it's not a test it's
Just me ridin legit, they can't arrest me or bust me
I'm still hungry, I want some more stuff
Get fat and watch my whole crew blow up
So get yours, and buy my new album
Peep the game and don't be like Calvin
Get everything you want, get real, get you mail
Get your girl to make bail and get your ass out of jail
You should be gettin it, everything you want
Everything you dreamed of, never have to front
you shoulf be gettin it, gettin money
I'm talking bout you black, don't laugh it aint funny
You should get a good lawyer, like Johnny Cochran
Swear to tell the truth, hell no I didn't pop him
Get your kids in school, so they can get an education
Get a degree, and take a vacation
You see I got all my game from the streets of California
Young millionaire with no high school diploma
Livin real good, taking care of my folks
roll up a fat one for the players to smoke
Short Dawg in the house, I know you aint trippin
Cause Life is Too $hort you gotta Get In Where You Fit In
Stop looking for what you never seem to find
It ain't what you think you got to read between the lines
Cause life ain't long, for a young black man
Tryin to make money doing all he can
Sellin dope don't ya hope he would go to classB
But the boy makes money and he makes it fast
with the twenties on top and the fifties on the bottom
I fuck the top notches oh yes we got em
It's been a long time since I first got down
But I still keep makin these funky sounds
Get your money man
Get yours
Chorus: P-Funk
You should be gettin it
Get it while the gettin is good, get it while you can
you should be gettin it
Get it while the gettin is good (repeat as necessary)
Verse Two: Too $hort
I know you tired of being broke just hanging out
You gotta lot a dreams but you can't get out
The first thing you need to do is set your self some goals
Think positive, everything else is old
and work hard, never stop hustlin
Cause they just love to see the black man strugglin
(So what are you saying Todd?)
It's time to come up, put your dollar bills in the air
He said meet me at the White House and I was there
Cause I'm one in a million, black man rising
They wanna keep me down but I always surprise em
Spend my money in the hood, I know it's all good
and you should do the same I told you peep the game
Too $hort, you know I'm the man
I lend my brother a hand cause I know I can
I keep going and goin but I'm not the pink bunny
I'm not beatin on a drum I never stop thinkin money
I'm gettin all I can if you don't ya slip
I can't wait to get to heaven just to have a grip
When I was broke, I couldn't afford a meal
But now I'm now rich I can't be fake I gots to keep it real
It's been a long time baby since I first got down
But it still keep making these funky sounds
Now let me holler at ya partner, spit this game
in you ear for a minute, quit complaining
Bout how you can't spend it cause you ain't got it
You got what it takes but not enough to get started
I hope you get the message, no it's not a test it's
Just me ridin legit, they can't arrest me or bust me
I'm still hungry, I want some more stuff
Get fat and watch my whole crew blow up
So get yours, and buy my new album
Peep the game and don't be like Calvin
Get everything you want, get real, get you mail
Get your girl to make bail and get your ass out of jail
You should be gettin it, everything you want
Everything you dreamed of, never have to front
you shoulf be gettin it, gettin money
I'm talking bout you black, don't laugh it aint funny
You should get a good lawyer, like Johnny Cochran
Swear to tell the truth, hell no I didn't pop him
Get your kids in school, so they can get an education
Get a degree, and take a vacation
You see I got all my game from the streets of California
Young millionaire with no high school diploma
Livin real good, taking care of my folks
roll up a fat one for the players to smoke
Short Dawg in the house, I know you aint trippin
Cause Life is Too $hort you gotta Get In Where You Fit In
Stop looking for what you never seem to find
It ain't what you think you got to read between the lines
Cause life ain't long, for a young black man
Tryin to make money doing all he can
Sellin dope don't ya hope he would go to classB
But the boy makes money and he makes it fast
with the twenties on top and the fifties on the bottom
I fuck the top notches oh yes we got em
It's been a long time since I first got down
But I still keep makin these funky sounds
Get your money man
Get yours
Chorus: P-Funk
You should be gettin it
Get it while the gettin is good, get it while you can
you should be gettin it
Get it while the gettin is good (repeat as necessary)
Verse Two: Too $hort
I know you tired of being broke just hanging out
You gotta lot a dreams but you can't get out
The first thing you need to do is set your self some goals
Think positive, everything else is old
and work hard, never stop hustlin
Cause they just love to see the black man strugglin
(So what are you saying Todd?)
It's time to come up, put your dollar bills in the air
He said meet me at the White House and I was there
Cause I'm one in a million, black man rising
They wanna keep me down but I always surprise em
Spend my money in the hood, I know it's all good
and you should do the same I told you peep the game
Too $hort, you know I'm the man
I lend my brother a hand cause I know I can
I keep going and goin but I'm not the pink bunny
I'm not beatin on a drum I never stop thinkin money
I'm gettin all I can if you don't ya slip
I can't wait to get to heaven just to have a grip
When I was broke, I couldn't afford a meal
But now I'm now rich I can't be fake I gots to keep it real
It's been a long time baby since I first got down
But it still keep making these funky sounds
i got caught sailing.
once.
when i was five........
tonight i went sailing drop-of-the-hat last-of-the-minute seat-of-the-pants at 5pm after getting a "lets go sailing" message from a stranger on sfsailing.com. so i drove to the sausa and sailed.
i was UNDER the golden gate. i've been waiting for my chance. to be under it. and i finally got it. 2 years later. well, actually 3! i've been here for 3 years.
the company was nice. the weather nice. the breeze choppy.
i hope he asks me again. its one of those things though, where you meet cool people, and its kind of all in their court. they have teh boat. they are in charge. alls you can do is smile and say you had a nice time.
wells i hopes they likes me.
once.
when i was five........
tonight i went sailing drop-of-the-hat last-of-the-minute seat-of-the-pants at 5pm after getting a "lets go sailing" message from a stranger on sfsailing.com. so i drove to the sausa and sailed.
i was UNDER the golden gate. i've been waiting for my chance. to be under it. and i finally got it. 2 years later. well, actually 3! i've been here for 3 years.
the company was nice. the weather nice. the breeze choppy.
i hope he asks me again. its one of those things though, where you meet cool people, and its kind of all in their court. they have teh boat. they are in charge. alls you can do is smile and say you had a nice time.
wells i hopes they likes me.
happening
you know whats happening (and this is great.) whats happening is that loans are tired of calling for collections - tired of no one being able to pay their minimum rates. and discounting payments, lowering interest rates, just to get a freakin' payment in.
they finally believe us when we as a collective say: "i can't pay that right now." so many of us have said that- whether we like to admit it or not, and now they are finally having to bend, because small payment, is better than no payment.
i know this has been happening for some time now, with housing, etc. but its finally trickled down into small 1000 dollar loans. smalltime things.
and i couldn't be happier.
they finally believe us when we as a collective say: "i can't pay that right now." so many of us have said that- whether we like to admit it or not, and now they are finally having to bend, because small payment, is better than no payment.
i know this has been happening for some time now, with housing, etc. but its finally trickled down into small 1000 dollar loans. smalltime things.
and i couldn't be happier.
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