did you know for a while there, i couldn't watch movies that were filmed in new york - or had anything to DO with new york? i ended my new yorker subscription, and stopped reading the nytimes. why? i didn't want to self inflict - what my friend & i had termed - "new york pain".

that is how much i love new york. and loved new york. fully. when i left, i remember driving in the cab to the airport, wondering why exactly i was leaving. what was i thinking?

i knew however, that i needed to try something different - get a dog, have a car, see what california was all about.

it has since been 5 years. i booked my ticket for a long weekend in october, today. i'm excited.

more later.